Saturday, November 29, 2008
"" @ 11:30 AM
taking a look back at the past three years of my tertiary education, i guess i have somewhat grown from all the things that happen. i suddenly felt like reflecting yesterday as the day i enrol to national service draws near with only 3 days, counting today that is. my jc life has been much much more difficult than my secondary life, where learning was fun everyday as everyday was always filled with something fun like playing cards and soccer in class. aah those were the good old days. but then again, i learnt life experiences in jc and im glad that i experience all these now so i can be prepared for the world after school world, where they say its the real deal of a living hell. and i still cant believe that i was able to pull through it all, even though most of the times i know that im alone to face it all and feel like breaking down. i can really say now that i have become a lot stronger than i was 3 years ago, after all the emotional rollercoaster ride ive been on. the pain from my regret that my pride was more important than saying out my true feelings to a girl i liked, the pain from losing a friend due to unexplainable cause of death, the pain from watching and losing my grandma who had been suffering from leukimia leave us behind and lastly the pain from being rejected. and more importantly, when facing all these, i learnt that ive been so obstinate, thinking that i can handle all the pain by myself, thinking that im strong when im actually not. never opening up myself to the people around me whenever trouble take a toll on me. all along i thought that strength was the ability to accomplish feats alone when actually strength is the ability to strip myself of my pride defence, lean on others and face feats together with those who are around me. and i so foolishly perceive that as a weakness, not strength. with all that said, another chapter of my life is about to begin and i really hope that i can continue growing and learning to become a much much better person. i really grateful that i get to experience this in the early stages of my life.before i leave, i guess i gotta thank these peeps for all the fun i hadthe victorians who got to tpjc with me, be it my batch or the batch after.
my beloved 06s22 whom we shared crazy times with.
my current class of 07s24, filled with interesting times together with you guys man.
the rest of the people in tpjc whom ive acquainted with.
*chao*
willis: haha ya i know. i blog only once in a while lah.
khyrul: hmm, maybe not everyday lah mike. somedays i left halfway.
amirah: hey glad u found it. haha.
