Saturday, November 29, 2008
"" @ 11:30 AM
taking a look back at the past three years of my tertiary education, i guess i have somewhat grown from all the things that happen. i suddenly felt like reflecting yesterday as the day i enrol to national service draws near with only 3 days, counting today that is. my jc life has been much much more difficult than my secondary life, where learning was fun everyday as everyday was always filled with something fun like playing cards and soccer in class. aah those were the good old days. but then again, i learnt life experiences in jc and im glad that i experience all these now so i can be prepared for the world after school world, where they say its the real deal of a living hell. and i still cant believe that i was able to pull through it all, even though most of the times i know that im alone to face it all and feel like breaking down. i can really say now that i have become a lot stronger than i was 3 years ago, after all the emotional rollercoaster ride ive been on. the pain from my regret that my pride was more important than saying out my true feelings to a girl i liked, the pain from losing a friend due to unexplainable cause of death, the pain from watching and losing my grandma who had been suffering from leukimia leave us behind and lastly the pain from being rejected. and more importantly, when facing all these, i learnt that ive been so obstinate, thinking that i can handle all the pain by myself, thinking that im strong when im actually not. never opening up myself to the people around me whenever trouble take a toll on me. all along i thought that strength was the ability to accomplish feats alone when actually strength is the ability to strip myself of my pride defence, lean on others and face feats together with those who are around me. and i so foolishly perceive that as a weakness, not strength. with all that said, another chapter of my life is about to begin and i really hope that i can continue growing and learning to become a much much better person. i really grateful that i get to experience this in the early stages of my life.before i leave, i guess i gotta thank these peeps for all the fun i hadthe victorians who got to tpjc with me, be it my batch or the batch after.
my beloved 06s22 whom we shared crazy times with.
my current class of 07s24, filled with interesting times together with you guys man.
the rest of the people in tpjc whom ive acquainted with.
*chao*
willis: haha ya i know. i blog only once in a while lah.
khyrul: hmm, maybe not everyday lah mike. somedays i left halfway.
amirah: hey glad u found it. haha.
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
"" @ 9:54 PM
cool. i took a 7 months break from blogging. and i guess that is pretty long. well anyway im now in my fourth day of my study break ( starting from 9th august, which is actually national day...). so yeah. i guess this study break is more of a break for me ( and the same goes for khyrul) which actually should not be the case for me. i just felt that somehow i just cant bring myself to start studying, when this break is the preparation for the preliminaries examintaions. well thats because i need to get a hold of myself first before even getting started. this year, up till now, hasnt exactly been the way that i planned and things happen. im not so sure how to put it, but i feel as if the things that happen to me will sooner or later come back to haunt me one way or another. and the pathetic thing is that i can never have enough courage to face them all, all because i keep avoiding this little things. haiz.. wish i was stronger.. emotionally. i guess theres no training for that. well i guess for now i dont really have much to say. *chao*
burg: ok done. haha ive finally updated. sorry it took so long.
anwar: dude leave behind your url man. haha.
Friday, January 18, 2008
"" @ 8:43 PM
i finally had time free to blog since i had been so busy lately. so the past 3 weeks of 2008 could still be better for me. i had kinda start the year on a wrong foot. ok yeah. thats how i kinda twisted my ankle last monday during pe. thinking aback i laughed while trying to picture how badly i fell. ok so this is how it started. our pe teacher had asked us to run 8 laps, from lane 8 to lane 1. after like around 50 metres, a trinkle of sweat slowly made way, seeping into my eyes. so i just die die had to wipe it of since it was kinda irritating. and then it happen. as i closed my eyes i slipped ffrom the track as it was slippery. then my ankle hit the side of the track and i fell on my left, twisted my left ankle. as soon as i landed on the track my body subconconciously rollled towards the grassy area around the track as i did not want to distract the path of other runners. the moment i was in the grass area, i grabbed my ankle and wailed in agony. i cant believe it. a lot of people around me stopped for a moment, even the jc1 girls. at that moment i didnt really care about my dignity as a man as the pain was excruciating.
well my ankle is ok now. well at least i can walk properly. but the swell is still there, yet to subside.
ah. the match of tampines junior college against victoria school has just ended. with the outcome so obvious even before it started. VS THRASHED TP 6-0!!!! yeah i was proud vs won. i didnt really thought they could thrash seniors of age 2 yrs older with that kind of scoreline. the match was exciting with me, khyrul akhil kimkeat and pakyu watching the match from the 7th floor at vs field. the field was much much nicer than the old one. well im not really good at commentarying the match but i shall stop here. i need to go and sleep now. kind of beat from the draining week. thats all.
*chao*
Friday, November 16, 2007
"" @ 12:45 PM
woohoo. its the end of the week. anyway its nothing to be happy about since there is really nothing for me to look forward to. yup. the past few days i have been basically doing pretty much nothing but sitting at home and satisfying my craving for asian dramas. that is especially korean and japanese dramas. i wonder still the reason for this unusual behaviour of mine. and yes it has really gotten me quite bewildered. oh well. i guess after thinking about it, i could only find one answer. i need a place for me to really find who i should be, or maybe on what i should be doing. this may sound weird but its true. i have been dwelling on this for the whole of this year. all these while i have just been leeching on everybody's dream. i kept on telling people of how i dreamt of being this and that without any basis. well i just have been lying to people. and true enough people believed me. i felt really guilty lying to them. but after watching all these dramas of how dreams are not only made of but also that they can be achieved. they really inspire me to think deeply of what my interest was and that i should work towards that goal because i will definitely succeed in life if i follow my dream. though their stories are far from surreal, they somewhat have an impact on me. thats why now im more aware of which path to take in life. and i guess its quite a weird path, some may even say its impossible. so here goes. my dream is to become one of the first few people in history to create a time travelling spaceship. since young i always wanted to find out what it is like to see people of the past. though currently the technology does not permit such a feat, im more than ever determined to make it come true. well guess i should probably thank all the dramas that ive watched. well thats all then.
*chao*
khyrul: oops. haha wrong phrasing. ok ive edited it.
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
"" @ 7:32 PM
hmm.. i think i should try replying tags here too. since everybody's doing it. ok so here goes.
*chao*
joshua: yup sure i will. i'm definitely catching up very very fast. woohoo.khyrul: mike read again. i said sec 4 class.
Monday, November 12, 2007
"" @ 5:25 PM
haaah. how refreshing. i finally can go back to blogging after such a long rest. let me see. it has been like my blog's been hibernating for almost 3 months. well how shall i start.
ah yes. i got promoted to year 2. finally. well i should say i did pretty much better than last year. with CCD im currently in the middle of my class as in position. i still cant believe how happy i was with that. but too bad i guess my teacher told me that i didnt do much to her expectation considering almost half my class obtain such miraculous results of As and Bs. some even complain how they wanted to get straight As but could not. wonder what these people are thinking about. weird. ok so maybe not weird considering that they are after all nerds. thank god that i only have less than a year left. i still miss my sec 4 class. oh well. probably this class of mine (07s24) shall not be missed by me then.
the other thing is that now i finally got a new computer! ahah. life was so taxing without it. i mean yeah the songs and all. i was pretty sad too about my old one. it has been nestling on my computer table dead for so long and now another one has overthrown it. wahaha. ok so now i shall get back to playing games. and ill try to update regularly now that my computer is up and running.
*chao*
Thursday, August 16, 2007
"" @ 10:38 PM
so now i just woke up from sleep after taking the super drowsy medicine to cure my sore throat. and the purpose of me waking up is to finish up my research on my gp project. how weird. and here im thinking that i can escape from projects. oh well i guess thats life.
so today was another mundane school day i guess. nothing excptionally exciting happen. only that i got the sore throat back due to heavy laughter in school during my last break in school. we just sat down and started talking crap but this time the crap was really really crap. somehow when we stop somewhere during the conversation, when we try to find the link from start to end, theres no connection. thanks to that, i laughed like a crazy horse i guessed. and after break, during physics, i just can't stop coughing and there you go, a comeback by my enemy, the sorethroat. mm, guess i better get back to tidying up my resaerch then
*chao*
